A much better day today, mainly from a physiological point of view.
I had a 90-minute counseling session this morning on fatigue management and energy management
Then I had Two hours physio with two brilliant ladies who had me doing all sort of exercises but explained the benefit of each exercise. By the time they left they had me just about doing what young children do all day without thinking, but to me this was a great achievement, and it feels good.
These sessions have at last made me realise both, how severe the trauma has been to my body and brain and that I must accept that it will take time to get better, but if I continue to be so determined (obstinate in Mrs. H’s mind) I will make a full recovery.
We are truly blessed with some excellent dedicated health care professionals they are amazing, they know how to stretch you but they also have the gift of making you feel good / positive about yourself in these dark times.
I have also agreed to have a further counseling session to help me accept / adapt to the changes that are taking place so rapidly in my life.
This apart the day was made up of a good sleep, up for a bath then I made scrabbled egg on toast which I ate with Avelia who then went off to work and desert me till 7pm
Our friend Jill and her dad came round for a brief visit this morning which was very nice.
After the first session this morning I emptied the dishwasher, which is a difficult task with all the bending and stretching, I then went for a walk down the garden, which again brings home to me how lucky I am and what a beautiful world we live in.
I have not got much of an appetite today so not eaten well at all but I am sure I can manager my bedtime tipple.
In some respect a very dull day but for me perhaps I have just come to terms with current reality, 4 weeks on, having accepted that my goals going forward should now be much more realistic and achievable.
Early night tonight for me and thanks all for your continued support and good wishes.
Hi, better late than never….
Yesterday was a funny day, I slept till 9.30 then had breakfast and slowly loaded the car with loads of rubbish for the tip. It took ages and nearly killed me, good job the boss was at work.
Back inside for a quick rest then on PC for half an hour before I made a sandwich and then bed for a couple of hours.
I was rudely awakened by the sound of a trumpet lesson downstairs, then Avelia took me to hospital via the tip, perhaps she should have disposed of me there, to hand my heart monitor back in.
Home for a nice tea, then watch an hours TV with Mrs H, then it was bed for me.
I am still improving on the tiredness front but by golly it is taking some managing but still feel confident about my time line with respect to getting back to work. Sorry guys I will be back.
It is very difficult as when I get up in a morning, I feel like a fraud and that I should be at work, but by 11.00 am I am totally knackered having done little. But I am on the mend that is the main thing.
Today is an important one for me as we have a long standing invitation to a 70th Birthday party, whilst I am aware I can’t go for long, I am determined to show my face, this will be hard as it is an evening thing and I am normally in bed before it starts, so I will be going to bed this afternoon just to give myself a fighting chance, I hope it comes off as it will be another milestone achieved as it will involve the use of public transport.
3 months ago, I could not begin to imagine that these things. that we all take for granted, would become such important challenges to me.
Avelia is teaching this morning and Laura has got a trial shift at Next, do they really know what they are getting, she will do very well if she puts her heart in to it, which I am sure she will. But they don’t do clothes my size so what use is their staff discount though she does see it as a major plus.
What I would give to be that age again.
This morning, I am going to potter and measure for some new blinds for the conservatory windows and then we will have totally eradicated the “Gothic” look in there that was left by the previous owners…
I am really missing interaction with people and can’t wait to continue my rehabilitation which hopefully, after a very busy medical week, next week, will involve me introducing this knackered body back into a bit of public life. I just have to get rid of my self conciseness that I do not appear normal, if I ever was, as the left hand side of my face is still numb and has dropped a little, it is worse when tired, also I tend to shuffle a bit, again when tired. I know very minor things, but these are the things that are on my mind, they will hopefully continue to improve. When very tired I occasionally also dribble slightly from the LHS of my mouth, I suppose this is just like a normal Saturday night for most people.
Hope you all have a great weekend.